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The Aftermath

It has been almost 2 weeks since Wayne’s total thyroidectomy surgery. It was a very long 7 hour surgery, as there were some minor complications.

I will never forget that look of resignation and worry on Wayne’s countenance as he walked through the main door of the Operating Room. But 7 hours later, he came out awake, and cancer-free.

Wayne is such a trooper. He has since bounced back to full health, and has even gone back to work this Monday.

The first 3 days following surgery were long and painful.

Wayne was miserable, grumpy, and was confined in the hospital for observations. He was very impatient, and grumbled a few times on why he seem to be taking a long time to heal.

But we sat through the 3 days in that small cramped hospital room, not talking much, just watching lots of TV in each other’s company.

His healing improved dramatically after he came home. =) I guess there really is no place like home.

We are so very lucky and blessed. We have come out of this whole situation quite intact.

True, it really sucked that a wonderful guy like Wayne had to be dealt with the cancer card. But bad things happen to good guys all the time.

It is in how we deal with the bad hands that we are dealt with that our true natures, and our innate human resilience shines through.

The past 3 months have been one hell of a roller coaster ride, but it has made us stronger as a couple and a family, and we are definitely more appreciative of life and of one another.

Life is definitely more or less back to normal for us now. We have gone back to our regular routine pre-cancer.

Life goes on.

Till the next time I muse.


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Today is one of those days when I woke up, and I know that it is not going to be a good day. I woke up feeling angry, and resentful.

And everything just feels wrong, and negative.

Maybe completely overscheduling myself for the past month is finally catching up on me, and the overscheduling is finally taking a toll on my sanity.

I knew the over-busyness will come back and bite me, but how else am I going to not dwell on Wayne’s thyroid cancer diagnosis?

The past 2 months have been rough… Wayne dropped the health scare bomb on me on August 9th… I can still remember that night, as we were driving home from a kids’ birthday party, when he said he is going to see an ENT specialist on August 12th, and he thinks I should be there. I remember my reaction clearly… “Wayne, is there something about your health that you should be telling me?”

Turned out that they found a growth in his thyroid, and they are not sure what it was. That was the start of our journey in the world of thyroid cancer.

Since then, he has done his biopsy, and it has come back positive.

The thyroid surgery date has been scheduled. It will be on October 23rd. And the prognosis is good. He should be fine after the thyroid is removed, and all he has to do is take a thyroid pill every day for the rest of his life.

Even though the prognosis is good, it really still sucks. And it sucks big time. Part of me is angry… Angry that this should happen to Wayne, who despite his manly insensitivities to a woman’s emotional world, is a wonderful father, and as good a husband as he is capable of.

Why him? He has always been a healthy guy with healthy living habits… So, why him?

Bad luck. That is all the explanation that was offered. Really???

One off… Again… really? How is it that we have so many one offs? Apparently, it’s a common cancer.

Even though thyroid cancer is “the best cancer” to have in the world of cancer… it still makes me angry. It still pisses me off. Why brush it off and say it is the “best cancer” to have? What kind of a consolation is that really?????

So, yes… I am angry. I am pissed.

And I am not going to feel bad about wanting to feel angry and resentful.

I know this too shall pass… but for this one day, I am going to give in to this consuming and seething emotion in me.

Till the next time I muse.

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